This blog post is hard to place. Why? Because I have 2 blogs. One being for my personal recollective thoughts and the other being for my techy gamey things. So where do I put a blog that was inspired by my completing of Final Fantasy IX? Well it’s about personal reflexion mainly so in my personal blog it goes.
As many of new know. My childhood wasn’t all bright colours and funny sounds. It was mainly made up of damp surroundings and floor boards being a makeshift bed. But not everything in my childhood was terrible. Like everybody else we do have happy memories. I have 3 main things.
Disney
Mc Donald’s
Playstation
When I feel down or depressed I usually try and do the things that always made me happiest. Weird eh? Instead of moping around I go out of my way to make myself happy. I push everyone away to do it yeah. Why? Because they want to talk about my problems. Talking won’t make it go away. But thanks for the thought. True friend. 
Usually when I feel really down I buy a McDs (I’m a vegetarian so feel free to make me feel worse about myself than I already do. Yeah go on! State the obvious) get in bed and watch a Disney Film. This is because when I was a kid I was always happiest either with a McDs or whilst watching an old Disney film like Lion King or Beauty And The Beast. So combining the 2 is a no brainer really. It doesn’t make the problems go away but it makes me feel better and forget about my problems for a few hours as I bask into the awesome world of Disney.
But sometimes a few hours of confinement is not enough. Sometimes I need weeks of confinement just so I can get my head together. This is where Playstation comes in. As you may have guessed when I’m feeling down I tend up bog down in nostalgia. In this case I start playing old PS1 games. It’s when I play a PS1 game that my entire day can literally fly by and I have so much fun doing it.
In particular I usually play Final Fantasy IX. A game about a princess and a commoner falling in love. It’s a romantic story to me, to others it’s about war and to others it’s about the meaning of life. The games main story is different for each person but for me it’s love. Because I’m a softy and can’t resist a mushy story. I spent nearly 70 hours playing FFIX I have completed it a good 4 or 5 times now and it never ever gets old. It’s by far my favourite game of all time.
The issue is that when I eventually finish the game all the problems suddenly come back to me. Mainly the “what am I doing with my life and what will I make of myself”. That keels coming back a lot recently. The future scares me. A lot.
Anyway what do you do when you feel down? Do you listen to music, play a game, comfort eat or maybe you just write a blog like me and not care if people read it or not. Well…. It is for personal reflexion. It’s only here for the people who read it.
